To say the past year of my life has been transformative would be an understatement. The truth is, the past year has flipped my world upside-down and spun me around. When I look back upon this year it feels like both the longest and shortest year of my life and I honestly don’t know if I would’ve survived it with grace if I hadn’t found Islam. Over the past month, I have reflected a lot on the past year and how much things have changed for me. Islam has given me so many gifts that I can’t even begin to count them all. I feel that it could be useful for me to share some of the incredible gifts I’ve received so that people can understand why I believe that Islam came to me at exactly the right time. I can understand that some people may have thought I rushed into my conversion or that I wasn’t genuine or would give up after a few months. I’m not a perfect person and I’m far from practicing Islam perfectly, but I hold true that Allah’s (ﷻ) all-encompassing Mercy saved me at exactly the right time, and in sha Allah (God-willing) I will have the opportunity to grow even more in my faith. I don’t think it’s possible to rush into the right decision, and when the Truth came to me I felt an obligation to act. Being a convert to Islam is not at all easy, but it’s truly such a gift to know that Allah chose for me to know Him, against all odds, when I was at my most dirty and sinful. I’m often asked if I miss the things I gave up when I decided to devote my life to Allah (ﷻ). I did indeed give up some of my favorite things but every single thing I’ve given up has been replaced with something far greater. Without Allah (ﷻ) I have nothing, yet with Allah (ﷻ) I have everything I need. Here are just a few of the many gifts I have received through my conversion to Islam…
Peace
Since I took my shahada (declaration of faith) 1 year ago everything has felt lighter. My anxiety has decreased and I carry fewer of the burdens I used to shamefully drag through every day of my life. I attribute this newfound peace to the comfort that I can only find in the presence of my Creator. It’s clear to me now why Allah (ﷻ) commands all Muslims to abandon the world 5 times per day to submit to Him. Five times per day Allah(ﷻ) calls me to Him and the world does not matter. Before my conversion, I thought 5 times per day was so extreme and unnecessary. Praying that often seemed more like a chore than worship. This past year has taught me that proclaiming Allah’s (ﷻ) greatness and mercy and power while bowing down to Him 5 times per day was something I needed more than the breath in my lungs or food in my stomach. I think Allah (ﷻ) knows how forgetful humans are and that’s why He demands 5 daily prayers. These prayers remind us constantly of Allah’s (ﷻ) presence, for our own sake. Prayer brings with it the gift of peace because no matter what happens in my life I’m still always reminded, 5 times per day, that this world is not my home. Prayer is the tiny taste of home I get every day when I force myself to quiet out the entire world and focus on something eternal. There will never be peace in this world, consequently, true peace in my heart can never be achieved by chasing the world. The peace that Allah (ﷻ) had reserved for me was always there, I only had to reach out and take it.
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وَٱللَّهُ يَدْعُوٓا۟ إِلَىٰ دَارِ ٱلسَّلَـٰمِ وَيَهْدِى مَن يَشَآءُ إِلَىٰ صِرَٰطٍۢ مُّسْتَقِيمٍۢ
صدق الله العظيم
And Allah invites ˹all˺ to the Home of Peace and guides whoever He wills to the Straight Path.
Quran 10.25
Truth
Living my life as a Christian I always had some form of lingering curiosity that made me ponder uncertainties that I couldn’t find the answers to within the Bible. I think that this world is not altogether about getting answers to all our questions. Yet, even so, I feel that Islam has allowed me to be privy to wisdom unexplored by myself before. Although I am a former Christian and I spent 21 years practicing the faith in varying degrees, I refuse to be known as an “ex-Christian”. I find this term insulting both to me and Christians alike. I only say this because I’ve discovered that it’s very common for people who leave Islam to identify as “ex-Muslims” and spend much time and energy criticizing Islam. Please remember me for what I am, rather than what I used to be. I know that I often mention Christian beliefs or compare Christianity to Islam, but in the end, I am Muslim. I am just as Muslim as anyone who was born with the words “ašhadu ʾan lā ʾilāha ʾilla -llāhu, wa-ʾašhadu ʾanna muḥammadan rasūlu -llāh” (I testify that there is no god but Allah and Muhamad is His Messenger) whispered in their ear from the moment they took their first breath. I am so grateful for the journey I was able to take to find the Truth in such an unconventional way. Every single day I get to reach for that Truth even more. I understood the day I took my shahada that this truth was one I would have to fight for. The world around me says my faith is misguided, primitive, and oppressive. The world is so quick to dismiss something they have no knowledge of. I too, dismissed the whole of Islam without a second thought for many years. I lived in the dark for so long and now the Truth is so much clearer. I think that’s what makes converts to Islam so special. Many people have told me over the past year that I seem to know more about Islam than born Muslims. I think that’s true for so many other converts. Born Muslims simply can’t understand what it’s like to live in the dark for most of your life and then finally have your eyes introduced to the light. It’s something that makes you so thirsty for knowledge and so driven towards the biggest missing piece that was absent from your heart for so long. No one, including myself, can claim the ability to fearlessly search the Truth except by the guidance of Allah (ﷻ). Surely the Truth has guided me yet without Allah I am nothing.
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ٱلْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ ٱلَّذِى هَدَىٰنَا لِهَـٰذَا وَمَا كُنَّا لِنَهْتَدِىَ لَوْلَآ أَنْ هَدَىٰنَا ٱللَّهُ ۖ
صدق الله العظيم
Praise be to Allah for guiding us to this. We would have never been guided if Allah had not guided us.
Quran 7.43
Empowerment
Growing up I was constantly led to believe that Western society was the benchmark for female empowerment. As if no other society would ever come close giving women the same freedoms they are afforded in the West. I was told that women in other countries required liberation and that liberation came in the form of less clothing. Perhaps people think Muslim women talk about their hijabs too much and to be honest, maybe we do, but it’s only because we have to. There are still so many misconceptions in the world about the hijab and its symbolism that I’m reminded every single day what a privilege it is to have the right to wear the piece of clothing that empowers me the most in my university, in my workplace, and in my country. And so as long as the right to have the choice to wear a hijab, niqab, burka, etc is up for debate, rather than an unequivocal human right, I will continue to speak about how my hijab empowers me. At its core, my hijab is symbolic of my obedience to Allah, and for me, that’s reason enough for me to wear it and be proud and unapologetic about it. I’m reminded today that this day (February 28th) is not only the day I proclaimed my obedience to Allah(ﷻ) but it is also the day I decided I would start wearing the hijab. My hijab was only one of the first ways I began to understand the empowered position Islam has provided to women. In Islam, I’m no longer tied to the cultural and societal standards that determine if women are equal humans or not. My rights as a woman are cemented in the Quran and anyone who attempts to take them away will face Allah (ﷻ) on the Day of Judgment. I no longer have to wonder about my equality with men and I can instead praise Allah for all the unique ways women are dignified in Islam; ways that Western culture continues to fail women in.
The following verse expresses women’s equality with men in every single aspect of worship…
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إِنَّ الْمُسْلِمِينَ وَالْمُسْلِمَاتِ وَالْمُؤْمِنِينَ وَالْمُؤْمِنَاتِ وَالْقَانِتِينَ وَالْقَانِتَاتِ وَالصَّادِقِينَ وَالصَّادِقَاتِ وَالصَّابِرِينَ وَالصَّابِرَاتِ وَالْخَاشِعِينَ وَالْخَاشِعَاتِ وَالْمُتَصَدِّقِينَ وَالْمُتَصَدِّقَاتِ وَالصَّائِمِينَ وَالصَّائِمَاتِ وَالْحَافِظِينَ فُرُوجَهُمْ وَالْحَافِظَاتِ وَالذَّاكِرِينَ اللَّهَ كَثِيرًا وَالذَّاكِرَاتِ أَعَدَّ اللَّهُ لَهُم مَّغْفِرَةً وَأَجْرًا عَظِيمًا
صدق الله العظيم
Surely ˹for˺ Muslim men and women, believing men and women, devout men and women, truthful men and women, patient men and women, humble men and women, charitable men and women, fasting men and women, men and women who guard their chastity, and men and women who remember Allah often—for ˹all of˺ them Allah has prepared forgiveness and a great reward.
Quran 33.35
Conclusion
One year is not a particularly long time but for me, this past year has been so revolutionary. Every day I’m like a child waking up and just trying to get more questions answered as I fall deeper in love with my faith daily. This one-year milestone feels huge to me because I know so many people doubted my sincerity but now I feel like I have nothing to prove to anyone around me, but everything to prove to my Creator. I feel so thankful to have the opportunity to openly practice my faith, as that’s not always the case with many converts to Islam. This list is just the tiniest fraction of all of the gifts Allah (ﷻ) has given me and I’m so excited to see what is planned for the future. I haven’t posted much on my blog this past year because I thought it was really important for me to spend as much time as possible reflecting and getting better acquainted with Allah’s (ﷻ) presence in my life. In the coming months, I hope to post a bit more, in sha Allah.
To anyone who has gotten this far in this post… If you are Muslim, I hope this encourages you to reach out the Allah (ﷻ) and discover the gifts He has given you through His presence in your life. If you’re not Muslim, I encourage you to pick up a Quran and discover what Islam is truly about. It might just surprise you in the same way it surprised me not too long ago.
في أمان الله (Be with the safety of Allah…)





